I know that most people speculate me and my friend as a couple mainly because we always hang out together and because we're both not too socially savvy. And because we're "smart."

But in a lot of ways, Andy is right. In some parallel universe not so different from this one, I think we could be a couple if we weren't both so overwhelmed with life. We're not compatible because we're both smart or awkward or anything. We have an honest relationship. I want to keep it this way. It could only work as a deeply honest, albeit platonic relationship. 

I'm not ready for love. I'm still incapable of loving myself, and it's difficult to receive love if you can't love yourself first.