Today was pretty terrible. I looked like a moron in calculus and chemistry, we read a gruesome paper in English, and I ran the mile in PE. I just wanted to die by lunchtime. Oh yeah, I cussed someone out and flipped the intercom off. Ha.

During third period, invisible children sent me the pity gram my friend filled out for me. It had a message that sort of made me internally explode. In a bad way. Chemistry was pretty ironic, because my premonition was right--except it wasn't exactly the way I thought it would  be. Serendipity, huh? It just made me feel worse.

I didn't go to tutoring today or calculus, and I was walking around and saw Brian standing by the chemistry classrooms. I walked with him to the tennis courts, bitchiness ensued! In a way, it felt comfortable bitching to him,  I waited for Ayana and David to go to the board meeting.

I'm so tired.

Also, I wish I was more confident. I act like a fucking moron sometimes, even when it's so much clearer in my head. I am capable of an intellectual conversation, but sometimes I feel people are too obdurate in their opinion to lean my way and it seems futile to make my point anymore.